The heart flutters, breaths are uneasy, hands clam up. Nerves on edge every time I think about it. Apprehensions of the unknown. Waiting, already thinking about what is to come, I have turned my entire day into a dead-zone. Time hanging in the air, slowly passing it seems. The old adage comes to mind. “A Watched pot never boils.” Such as it is now. Always counting down the time I have left until I have to face something completely new. The day seems endless, yet, I know all too soon when my time starts to run out– it will run out fast.

I take stock of all my talents and all my equipment. An expedition of old ready to set off to uncharted lands. Ready to face new challenges. In spite of how simple the task is. Regardless of how many times I have told myself that this is an easy and necessary task — Apprehension still takes hold. It is the fear of the unknown that haunts me. It is the certainty of uncertainty that causes my body to react. All hopes for a future rest on these moments.

What is nothing to someone, is all to me. I cannot fail.


A while back a friend of mine Said to me “Tell me a story” So, the following Paragraphs contain a story.

This was made up on the spot in the Spur of the moment, I didn’t have any Idea where the story was going. I didn’t think about it before I wrote, I just did. So – don’t be too critical!


Smatterings of broken light burst through a canopy of trees into thin columns of golden light, elaborated by the gentle mist that hung in the morning air. The ground was littered with the fallen and withered leaves from the great towering monoliths that rose above Jade like titans.

It was with bated breath that the young woman pressed onwards through that forest, her feet crunching the fresh dew coated earth beneath. Tattered rags hung loosely from her slender form, messes of brown and cream all held some order in their chaos, covering all that needed to be covered and not much else more.

As if suspended in time, hung by threads woven by Chronos, her breath waited a moment, before joining the mist that surrounded her. White fingers coiled daintily around the rags she wore and pulled them closer around her. “Just where is it…” she muttered, her lips dry and broken.

Jade possessed a rich voice, fragments of regal tone emanated as she pushed each word past her lips “I know it was around here somewhere.” Then she heard it; a friendly sound, the heartbeat of a thumping bass, the woeful moan of a low violin and the brassy cry of a trumpet. “Finally.” the young girl exclaimed.

Her pale digits passed her pale freckled face and slid through her auburn hair. Her brown eyes looked onwards and around, as the young girl strove to find the source of the distant merriment. Brown orbs broken up with flecks of gold all massed around an obsidian center bustled, brimming with excitement as Jade spotted a light-source through the thick mist.

As if folding back the very fabric of nature, the young, tattered girl stepped through as if breaching into a new world. The ground was soft, there were no trees, a clearing that allowed the very light of morning to touch upon the ground. A powerful and warm glow radiated from the location.

Before her it stood, like a savior in the darkness. Wooden logs bound together and woven with various materials. A wooden door and a sound of music had never come to her in such a reception of pure delight. Almost all at once Jade dropped to her knees and brought her face down into her hands and began to cry “finally… finally.”

To be continued?

Hear ye, Hear ye.

My good people,

I have decided to become the emperor of the imperial nation of insert name here. (The name is subject to change at this early stage)

Micronations:

A micronation is an entity created and maintained as if it were a nation and/or a state, and generally carrying with it some, most or all of the attributes of nationhood, and likewise generally carrying with it some of the attributes of statehood. Though a micronation may well have begun as a mere drollery, it has the potential (given the evolution of a sufficiently vital national culture) to develop into a true nation, and possibly to achieve statehood.

-Peter Ravn Rasmussen

Thusly, I will need citizens for my newly founded Empire.

Obviously I will need a piece of land (Tho’, technically this could be just my house) A website to centralize the communications of my sovereign nation, some form of currency and a flag symbol. And after that I can set up passports and things and then declare independence from the United Kingdom of Great Britain.

I will make a page so keep you updated on the state of the Imperial nation of Insert name.

Warm Regards,
His Imperial Highness.

I often wonder, while the mood is right and the night is late. I always ponder little odd things when I lay myself down to sleep. One such thing that I often think about is the sum of what is forgotten equates to. How much have I forgotten~ how many ideas and profound thoughts have come in my head, just to be replaced moments later in the fast-acting RAM-like portions of my brain.

I wonder, if I carried a notebook around with me, what it would say at the end of the week if I wrote down every thought. Is the brain meant to remember every single thought that you have, or would it overload. What would happen if I wrote down everything and crammed my brain – what thoughts would get pushed out instead.

Ramble-ramble-ramble.

“I have forgotten more than you will ever know.”

Night sets in and like a machine that’s been worked too long, I’m out of energy. I need to be put on standby to be recharged. It’s odd that I have no energy, I really haven’t done anything today. It’s just that I’m constantly on guard against my environment. It’s an energy sink. Like having all the lights turned on in your house, just in case there is a solar eclipse. Tomorrow will be much the same. The big smile, the happy laugh — all in the name of peace.

–I’m going to sleep.

I’m not sure why it is. Probably because I’m lazy and sloth. Maybe it’s because I like peace and quiet. Maybe it’s because I’m the type of person that likes to live for the indulgences in life. Whatever the reason, I hate tomorrow. I hate tomorrows with things and tasks that need to be accomplished. Tasks that I don’t want to do especially. Now I’m sure that this is the same for a lot of people, but, the worst thing for me is that I try to make  Today last as long as possible.

So, I’m sitting up, writing this entry purely from a procrastination point of view. I know that the arduous task ahead of me will suck the fun out of tomorrow. I’m just making matters worse by staying up now. It just means that when tomorrow comes. I’ll be tired. Trudge down town, all the way. Fill in some forms… come all the way back. Only then can the day start for me. It’s a very negative way of thinking that often leaves things undone or put off.

Luckily, as I get older this happens less and less. Responsibility sets in. Ah well – I guess I should call it a day for now… Or… I could watch the rest of the Kingdom of Heaven extended edition…

A single foot slithers unwillingly out of the covers before being bitten by the cold of the morning and darts back. Back to the safety and warmth from whence it came. I slip down and try to bury myself under the sheets and quilt. It’s not possible to hide from the day. The light comes in and noise gradually fills up the world. As my head slowly raises from my synthetic cocoon I slowly open my eyes.

The day is oddly gray… A lifeless Gray. From my angle all I can see is the sky – it makes it seem as if everything in the whole world has been removed and replaced with gray scale water colour. Swinging around, I hardly give myself time to brace against the frigid air. Two feet slap lazily down on the floor.

I’m awake. I wish that I wasn’t. Things are a lot more comfortable and much easier when you’re sleeping. It’s so easy to forget the troubles of the world. Then, I look up at the orange beacon proudly presented for me. It flashes with anticipation to get my attention.

That’s right… there is a reason to face another day with zeal. I’m awake.

Cold, uncaring rushes of air burst through the open door. Does the world care that I’m cold?

Dark, pitches of black and grayscale broken only by scattered light I cannot see, I strain to make out the matter around me. Does the world care that I cannot see?

Time, I am short on time but the world keeps spinning. Time goes on regardless – Does the world not care that I need more time?

Hello world — I live here am I that small that you do not see me?